“‘I don’t belong here.’ ‘I’m just so tired.’ ‘The stars feel like family.’ I still have those thoughts, but I’ve got to the point of wanting to live while just not wanting to be here.” - Sydney W. I just didn’t feel like I was meant to be alive.” - Monica R. “I used to say, ‘I don’t feel like I belong here,’ thinking it was just alienation, but I realized over time that it carried in all aspects of my life. “People would think I was exhausted from school, but in reality, I was emotionally drained and just wanted to sleep and never wake up.” - Lizzette Z. I felt like I’d get in trouble.” - Savannah I. “’I’m tired, I want to go to sleep.’ It never meant the literal sense, but I didn’t ever feel brave or safe enough to be frank with anyone. I just wanted someone to say it’s OK to go to sleep and not wake up.” - Timoteo M. “‘I’m so tired.’ I would say it all the time. Existential crises are hard to understand even now as an adult, let alone at 10 years old.” - Allison J. I didn’t understand why we are here if this is all life is. What are we doing? Why do we do things this way? What is the point? Because I felt sad and angry and had no self-esteem, even as a child that young. “In forth grade, I asked my mom if she ever stopped and thought about why we are here. And that can become very dangerous.” - Kacey K. ‘Why try?’ ‘What’s the point?’ To me, I couldn’t see any value in anything I did. “‘Why does it even matter?’ I’d say this in response to making an effort for things. “’What’s the point?’ meant I’ve fallen in and need a hand.” - Gilly H.
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I just kept saying, ‘I don’t know how to do life.’” - Barbara L. I wanted to go back, (where? I don’t know). I remember telling my mom, ‘I don’t know how to do this.’ She asked me what I meant and I told her I didn’t know how to live life. I was 4 years old and feeling anxious, though I didn’t understand that at the time. “Saying, ‘I don’t know’ when someone asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up because I never planned on making it to adulthood.” - Katy N. Pay attention to what your kids say, guys.” - Autumn S. And my little sister would shake her head and point to heaven. When she was a little girl, she would always tell my mom, ‘I want to go home.’ My mom would tell her that we are home, because we’d all be sitting in our own house. “ My sister, 13 years old, took her own life on October 21, 2017. I would find myself in a ball, crying, and repeating through tight breaths, ‘I just want to go home.’” - Michele M. “Even if I at home, or what was considered my home, I never felt I belonged there, or anywhere else.
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To find out what people said as kids when they were feeling suicidal, we asked members of our Mighty community to share one thing they said growing up that was really code for, “I want to die.” If you or a child you know are struggling with suicidal thoughts, please visit our suicide prevention page to find resources in your area. Talking about these phrases can help us identify children who are struggling and get them to the resources and support they need. No matter what your situation was growing up, the sad truth is there are a lot of reasons a child might use “code words” that really mean “I want to die.” Because of this, it’s important we talk about what kinds of phrases to look out for. Or maybe you dropped subtle hints to the adults in your life, hoping they would “get it” and step in to help. Maybe you covered up suicidal thoughts with looking “fine” and pretending everything was OK. Maybe you grew up in a physically or emotionally abusive environment and deep down, believed suicide was the only way to stop the pain. So if you experienced suicidal thoughts as a child, it may have been easy to believe something was wrong with you, when in reality, that couldn’t have been further from the truth. Growing up, we often aren’t taught about mental illness - and about suicide, we are taught even less. You can contact the Crisis Text Line by texting “START” to 741-741.
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Editor’s note: If you experience suicidal thoughts, the following post could be potentially triggering.